How does one merely start posting to their blog again after all that has happened?
When I say “all that has happened,” I’m specifically referring to having a baby a few months into a pandemic in the midst of a racial justice reckoning during a critical election year. PHEW! Life throws curveballs to be sure. But wow, the heartbreak and fear and chaos compounded last year. I don’t think I’m alone in my feelings of disconnection and frustration. I was and had to be solely focused on delivering the work I promised and keeping my kid healthy and happy, but I didn’t have margin for anything beyond that.
I guess what I came here to say is…I’m back.
Or I’m at least sitting at my desk working hard. I’m trying to figure out what I want my life and my schedule to look like. I’m privileged to have access to childcare. I’m starting to make plans and book projects into the future again. I’m raising my rates to where they should be so that I can devote the time and attention I should be. I’m starting to think abstract, creative thoughts beyond basic survival and health again. I’m starting to look forward with hope and excitement and wonder again.
It’s getting better. Hope you’re feeling the same way. We are creating. We are replying with kind but firm emails. We are making plans. We are moving forward. But slowly.